Thought-filled Thursday: Unconditional Love

Part 2 of my life story hasn’t been written yet, I promise I will finish it. I just haven’t been in the right mood. You have to be in the right mood to write something like that right? I do have something to say though.

Last night, Eden was having her fussy time…the past few evenings she’s been really fussy and at points crying really hard. The tears were just rolling down her cheeks which breaks my heart because I don’t know how to solve her problems. Tim got out the guitar to play a relaxing melody and I just held close her and rocked her. I spoke softly to her and she calmed down, I think she could feel my love. She looked at me with those watery blue eyes and listened to my every word. I told her how much I loved her, how I wanted to protect her from the world – from all the hurt that she’s bound to experience, how she would never know how much I loved her until she had a baby of her own, how I wanted to hold her forever because if she were in my arms then I would know she would be safe. I told her so many things while rocking her and my blue eyes became watery because I love her so much. The love that I have for her in indescribable, the moment she was placed on my chest for the first time my heart was transformed with love, and I knew I would never be the same again. I instantly became a mother, even though I thought I wasn’t ready for such a responsibility. It’s amazing how such a little person can change your worldview.

Beauty

That’s why we named her Eden. She’s perfect and she is a gift from God. The Garden of Eden was a new beginning, it was perfection, it was beautiful, life came from Eden, and the beings were one with God. That’s why we named her Eden. She has given us new life literally and figuratively. Where would we be if God didn’t surprise us with this gift? Making lots of money, hiking and hanging out with friends on the other side of the world? I can’t imagine feeling as fulfilled and at peace with my life doing that as I do while I’m rocking my baby to sleep and kissing her goodnight. Tim wouldn’t be following his dream of becoming a doctor and we wouldn’t have developed this wonderful relationship with our niece Charlotte who interchangeably calls me Nina and Kathryn (sometimes from one sentence to the next). I will be sad when she eventually drops Nina. I wouldn’t have been pregnant with my big sister and we wouldn’t have girls together who will grow up with birthdays only a month apart.

Cousins

For the first time in a long time I feel content with my life and the direction it’s heading. Thank you Father, for caring enough about my life to not let me get my way.

Adorable

I also want to share a link with you. After Eden calmed down last night I was reading a blog that was recommended by my friend Courtney. Grab some kleenex and read this birth story, the tears were rolling down my cheek because of the honesty and raw emotion in this woman’s writing.

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Real Foods Fredericton

Last week we ordered a small box of fresh veggies from Real Foods Fredericton. Basically Real Foods collects local food from farmers in this region and distributes it to their customers. They actually deliver right to your door! It’s nice to get the freshest ingredients, it really makes a difference in flavour, however you do pay for it. Of course it’s a toss up especially not knowing what you’re going to get with the mystery box of veggies but we wanted to give it a try and see what it was like.

Our veggies were delivered in this:

This is what was inside:

All for $15. A bit pricey, but you have to remember that it’s locally and responsibly grown produce, and it’s delivered to your door. We did think that there would have been a bit more quantity wise, but we have been very happy with the quality thus far. The carrots have been by far my favourite, they were so flavorful and sweet. Definitely the best carrots I’ve eaten (sorry Sawlers…).

Check out their website and let me know what you think of the idea!

Menu Plan Monday: Sept. 27 – Oct. 3

Another week, another menu! We normally shop at Sobeys for the airmiles but there were some really good deals on at Superstore so we decided to do our shopping there this week. We’ve all had a lingering cold which hasn’t been very fun, especially with the baby. My mom always said that you can’t be sick when you’re a mom, and now I definitely understand what she meant… you can’t just crawl into bed and sleep when you feel like crap. Anyway, at least we’ve been eating pretty good lately. It definitely pays to have a meal plan when your not feeling well, you don’t have any decisions to make or last minute trips to the grocery store to take!

Monday: Canned beans and grilled cheese (pathetic, I know, but Tim took the leftovers to work and I don’t really feel like making a proper meal just for me)

Tuesday: Grammy’s Fish Chowder with Easy Homemade Cheese Bread

Wednesday: Italian Sausage and Potato Roast

Thursday: Homemade Pizza (with this crust)

Friday: Thai Chicken Pasta

Saturday: Leftovers (if none than something simple like tuna melts)

Sunday: Slow cooker Pot Roast with root veggies

For more great meal ideas check out orgjunkie.

Menu Plan Monday: Sept 20-26

Monday: Leftover Pizza Margherita (a family favourite way to use garden veggies) and beef stew

Tuesday: Pork chops, rice and veggies

Wednesday: Chili with Tostitos

Thursday: Leftover Chili

Friday: Slow cooker Chicken, potatoes, and veggies with Pamela, Tim, Charlotte and Lila

Saturday: BBQ sausages from the market and couscous salad

Sunday: BBQ Pork chops and some kind of side

For more meal ideas check out http://orgjunkie.com

Thought-filled Thursday: My Story, Part 1

I’ve been reflecting on my life lately: where I’ve come from, what I’ve been through, and how that’s created the person I am today. I wanted to show you my life visually, with photos, but I don’t have any photos of myself from the first 19 years of my life here. I’ll have to scan some when I’m home next. Instead I will try to create an image of my life through words.

May 19, 1984 – Kathryn Mary Jamieson is born! Andrew Jamieson isn’t present to witness the birth of his second daughter, he is home with the flu and with older sister Pamela.

Throughout our childhood years Pamela, Heather and I all played together. We had innumerable barbies and fisher price people. We put on performances and recorded radio shows. Pamela was our teacher throughout the summer months and even made us pass in homework and book reports (before we even started school).

Middleschool was awkward… I was bullied by my peers mentally and verbally and struggled with a low self esteem. I thought wasn’t pretty enough for any boy to take notice. I thought I was fat.

I established some good friendships in high school. I gained confidence in myself (or at least learned to fake it). I was involved in different activities in the church and in school and I found my place. I had a bit of a falling out with a long time school friend in grade 12 but I was secure enough with who I was to survive that whole situation, even when she prevented me from going to the prom with my date. I went with some other girlfriends and had a blast!

High school was also a time when I began to understand what it was to follow Christ, and my relationship with Him grew deep. My passion for adventure began to form as well as my passion for the lost. I knew I wouldn’t be satisfied with the “norm”.  Even though I applied to university it was more to satisfy my parents (and teachers) desires rather than my own. I was smart, was in the top ten of highest grades in my graduating class, surely I would go to university and become something great and impact the world in that manner. I knew I didn’t want to do that, at least not yet. I wanted more out of life.

Fall of 2002 I began 6 months as a Discipleship Training School student in Calgary, Alberta.  This was the beginning of a huge life transformation for me. I was stretched in ways I didn’t think possible and I was challenged in areas I didn’t know need challenging. I made lifelong friends and even fell in love. I saw the world and ate Thai food for 2 months straight! I learned that even when faced with a whole country founded on Buddhist principles I could affect people on an individual basis. What an amazing experience to have at such a young age!

Drama presentation in Thai Market, Thailand 2003

Thailand 2003

Sitting on an elephant's head, Thailand 2003

It was definitely a life changing experience.

After traveling the world I decided to go to Mount Allison University and study Geography and Anthropology. What an amazing time! I was ready to do something more “normal” for a while. I was studying something I love, developing more lifelong friendships, learning a lot, and enjoying life. It was a wonderful community to learn and socialize. I met Tim through IV and began my first dating relationship. I had my first kiss when I was 20, crazy, I know. I am happy that my love life was simple and without history though.

Dating 2006

In 2006 I was getting restless again.

… to be continued